Consoling The Consolers

2 Mar

I’m emotional. ALOT. My girlfriend will tell you that half of the time I’m usually crying because of some heart-to-heart conversation I’ve had with my mom or some heartfelt commercial that just hit home. I don’t cry often, but when I do, it’s meaningful to say the least. What I find hard as I get older and older is the more and more I’m consoling others, I find it hard to dig deep and console my own self when I’m lost somewhere in the trenches and need some picking up. There are often times when I myself can’t handle my overly-emotional self or being emotional with someone else who is close to me – and I sort of nudge them away. It is sort of a self-defense mechanism in a way, I guess. But I just realized I did it to my mom just now as she was poundering me and asking me if I was okay and being the over-protective Mother she always is. Maybe it’s that or maybe it’s just that AND a bunch of other nonsense going on in my head. As you can see, I tend to ramble and I tend to have a million things going on in my head and life all at once that never seem to sort itself out one thing at a time. I guess they all have their own natural way of working their way out and I just have to trust that the whole “patience is a virtue” saying is for real and not just something some fancy white dude said once and banked on it every time after that.

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One Response to “Consoling The Consolers”

  1. Christina Rodriguez March 2, 2011 at 11:41 pm #

    I do this a lot too! It’s an awful cycle.

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